It's official. Like a bad sitcom, we were canceled after a few episodes for poor audience response.
Friday we try to salvage with IUI, but odds are poor. My progesterone is about the same today. Luckily I met with Dr Mumbles (formerly known as Dr K) so I got the chance to corner him and make him admit that it was the writing, not the actors, that was the reason for the cancellation.
Actually, he said right off the bat that he didn't want me to worry, and they WERE GOING TO GET ME THROUGH A CYCLE. He said this quietly, but with determination. I felt like a private under a great general, one who leads with quiet, firm, steadfast vision. I know how important it is to feel your RE is making it his/her personal mission to get you pregnant (see Mel's post). I'm really luck to have found Dr Mumbles, and that he is only 10mins from my house. I really need to count my blessings more.
He said things are not good, but he still wouldn't label me a "poor responder." Thanks G-d. Cause no one likes to be labeled. He felt my response during IVF #1 was decent, it was just this one that blew big, fat, hairy, chunks (an old puking reference of mine). He actually brought up trying DHEA, so that was refreshing since I think of him as pretty Mr Scientific.
So here is the best news, he assured me that the financials would be taken care of. They will back bill my insurance for the IUI (bw and u/s) -- the meds we have to eat. But that for another cycle he will make some arrangement to get us the meds or something. He just kept saying -- don't worry about it, we will get it all taken care of -- and not in that car salesman sort of way that you just don't trust.
Just when I was accepting THE END was here, and actually feeling ready to let go (sort of) -- along comes a new surprise to sneak HOPE back in the door. He was frank that there aren't a lot of tricks up his sleeve, and we are very near the end of options. But he seems sincere in thinking we can get through a cycle. He wants to try a microdose protocol, which sounds a little like a hail mary, but I'll have to consult Dr Google.
Wish me luck for Friday. I'll keep you posted (posted get it?).
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Hi Amy, this is the other Amy. I'm new to your blog but I wanted to say that I'm so sorry about your cycle being canceled. I know this must be so hard and disappointing. But I'm glad that you'll be going though another cycle and hopefully all of the protocol changes will make a difference.
Well, this sure sucks. I'm sorry. But at least Dr. Mumbles was able to restore some hope to the situation.
My 1st IVF was cancelled. For the 2nd, we did Microdose Lupron, and got slightly better results. We got even better results with Ganirelix the 3rd time, you might want to ask him about going straight to that.
I got some DHEA yesterday and started taking it today. I guess we'll see in about 2 months if it manages to make a difference with my dusty old ovaries.
That is magical that he's willing to help out with some of the finances, it's so comforting when the docs seem to actually give a shit about YOUR personal situation.
Keep us posted. This is going to sound trite, but you could get pregnant thanks to the IUI on Friday. So I'll get busy hoping for that...
Best wishes, Amy. We are expecting a transfer in the next few days but I am still waiting on the call telling us if our zygotes made it to decent embryos. Hang in there. I hope the microdose protocol works for you.
Dr. Mumbles sounds great. Its so important to have a supportive Dr. It's great to see you've been given some new hope and that it's not the END. Hang in there!
It sounds like you really lucked out with doctors (though it's a really like a tinfoil lining instead of a silver one because I mean...he's still a doctor. That you need to go to). I'm glad it's not over if you're not ready for it to be over and that he has more tricks up his sleeve if you want them. But I'm really really really sorry that you're canceled.
Amy, I'm so sorry about this cycle.
I'm glad to hear that Dr. Mumbles is so responsive, though, and is really working with you to make this happen. Both financially and otherwise.
But, I know that's cold comfort right now. I wish there was something else I could say to make you feel better.
Thinking of you!
Oh Amy, I am so sorry sweetie. Praying that there are some good eggs in there and that you can do a IUI. I know it's hard but try and keep the faith :)
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