Saturday, November 17, 2007

The End? Or the Beginning?

Oh G-D, I hope so.

Today I took my last BCP. Now back in June I thought I took my last BCP ever. And I was wrong. So I won't say ever. But it is my last BCP for an ART cycle in a long time. After this cycle, we will be financially out of the game for at least 1-2 years.

While in many ways I am looking forward to being done with treatments, I know that I won't be able to completely leave the mentality that goes along with TTC. With an undiagnosed diagnosis, its hard to ever completely give up hope on that miracle conception.

This time around we will be doing an entirely new protocol -- microdose lupron. Plus, I've been on DHEA for 3-4 months. I also have more Gonal-F that I can use this cycle than in the past. My RE doesn't have strong feelings about exactly which gonadotropins patients use, but with that horrible canceled cycle last summer, I used Follistim. Previously I'd only used Gonal-F with the Menopur with decent results. So I'm hoping that maybe my body prefers it, and I have enough (thanks to my dr and my friends) to use it more regularly throughout the stim.

So I'm working really hard to believe that this time will be different. I'm feeling pretty good and (after a few trying days with The Snake) things seem to be on the upswing. I feel happy sometimes (even horny sometimes, ssshhh). And Resident Boy will be on vacation during most of our stims. Of course it would have been better if he was off during ER and ET, but he requested the vacation awhile ago. So I'm looking forward to spending time together, and as for our procedures -- we will work it out. Luckily I can go to most of my scans without The Snake. So I will be less stressed, and hopefully not piss off anyone in the waiting area by being there with my kid in tow (I'm not mad, I really do understand).

Tuesday will be Baseline, start Lupron on Turkey day, Begin stims next Saturday. Hopefully make it to ER by Chanukkah (week of Dec 3).

I would love for it to be The End. And the Beginning of Something Wonderful.


Anonymous said...

I hope it is just the beginning.

Aurelia said...

I'll be cheering you on from the sidelines, weeeeee!

Magpie said...

I hope it's the beginning of a new life, and the end of infertility. Much luck to you.

CAM said...

My doc has said the same thing about the stim meds. I have taken many different ones and many different combinations, but I always seem to do the best with Gonal F and Repronex. Who knows why...I guess its just what our bodies prefer.
I am excited for you to start a new cycle.

chicklet said...

I hope it's the end of this crap and onto exciting new crap:-)

And sista, we're cycling together (as you noted)! I'll be starting injections end of this week sometime and retrieval between Dec 5-12 and transfer Dec 7-17 (this is all "ish" cuz I really don't know how it'll all really fall out).

I think it'll be kinda fun knowing someone's really "right there" with me - even if she's way the hell over there:-)

Sticky Bun said...

Here's to exactly that--the beginning of something wonderful! I've got everything crossed!

Geohde said...

Here's hoping that this works for you,


Tam said...

Hey sweetie, just checking in and wanted to say that I hope this is the end and that a beautiful beginning is just around the corner.

Thinking of you xxx

mary ellen said...

Good luck!!