We are locked in

I can see the horizon. If all goes according to plan, I will have completed my last attempt (for some time) at child number 2. I'm a little wigged out.

Had CD3 bloods repeated to check FSH/E2. Spoke with IVF nurse about my recent 40, yes that's right 40, day cycle. Okay, I know for some of you 40 days would be wonderful, but for me that is a new record. I've been on the DHEA for a month or so now, so we can get ready to cycle. Although I have to admit, hitting 3 times a day has not always been successful, but I always get 2 in. Anyway, we want to cycle with our doctor in December, but the clinic closes (for IVF) for the last 2 weeks in Dec. Therefore, if I have another prolonged cycle, we could get stuck waiting until the new year. No THANK YOU. So the nurse agreed we should do BCPs to insure I have a period by late Oct, so I can do BCPs again and microdose lupron to be ready to stim in late November and retrieve in early Dec. G-d I hate the scheduling crap.

I'm almost relieved to do the BCPs, because maybe they will help the migraines and reset my body. On the other hand, I'm worried that the migraines and other symptoms aren't from being screwed up from the massive amounts of meds during the last failed cycle. But in fact they mean that I am approaching POF and that 40 day cycle is just an omen of the things to come. And if that is true, than the IVF is doomed.

So, now the possibility of just getting pregnant on our own (before IVF) is officially gone.