My Achey, Breaky Head

I've been down for the count the last few days. Never had a migraine before, but I think that's what has been plaguing me for almost a week. Either that or I've got a brain tumor. I keep hoping for some bizarre pituitary tumor that will explain all my infertility. Of course this is unlikely, especially since I've injected myself with almost an entire case of stimulatory drugs while my ovaries snored away.

I was having some really mild dizziness occasionally after starting the DHEA. But after a week or so I noticed some strange vision changes. Its hard to explain. Not really blurred vision, but it sort of felt like my eyes weren't working together as a team. This led to some wooziness and nausea. It was especially bad when reading or driving. I was light-sensitive too, bright sun and fluorescents killed me. Then I developed killer tension headache and my neck muscles turned to steel -- I could hardly turn my head to back the car out of the driveway.

I stopped the DHEA Thursday morning. Finally started taking big honking doses of ibup.rofen. Made DH rub my neck. Drank a lot to induce relaxation. It seems to be helping. I don't know whether to blame the DHEA, or wonder if it is repressed stress/anxiety over my IF and everything else. I'm thinking of trying to slowly go back on the DHEA in a few weeks. Maybe ramp up the dose and see what happens. Any return of the symptoms and I'm done. Then I don't know what our IVF plan will be.

I'm heading to spend 2 weeks with my family starting next week. I'll be babysitting my niece while her parents head to Italy (lucky them). I'm going to try and just forget about everything while I'm there. Although AF will arrive while I'm there so that will be a lovely reminder. I'm just hoping the headache stuff is totally gone by then, since I have a 7-hour drive to get there. Any migraine cures you recommend? Can they really last this long? Or do you think I do have a tumor?

Cult of Personality

Thanks Serenity for posting this one. I've always wanted to do one of these but have never taken the time. It was fun. Spooky that we are the same type! And it only represents 0.5% of women.

Here is my profile:




INTJ are "introspective, analytical, determined persons with natural leadership ability. Being reserved, they prefer to stay in the background while leading. Strategic, knowledgable and adaptable, INTJs are talented in bringing ideas from conception to reality. They expect perfection from themselves as well as others and are comfortable with the leadership of another so long as they are competent. INTJs can also be described as decisive, open-minded, self-confident, attentive, theoretical and pragmatic."

I liked reading the list of careers they say match this personality type. Scientist was on there, as well as teacher/professor (a job I've considered). Photographer was really the only creative or artsy job there, which I though was facinating. Photography is my favorite hobby, and in high school I actually wanted to be a photojournalist. Of the famous people with this personality type, 3 of the women were TV journalists. Strange to take a little test and see such similarities.

Need a Fix?

Thanks to Niobe, via Christina (the oneliner), for this suggestion to see what country you are by taking a quiz. I loved it! It was totally apropos.

You're Colombia!

You do a lot of drugs, and these have kind of distorted your view of reality, to the point that everyone looks like an enemy. You keep trying to restore order over your schizophrenic world view, but you don't even know which goal is your own and which is someone else's. You're pretty sure someone needs to be punished for all this, but who that is changes all the time. Things would be a lot better for you if you switched to coffee, or even to decaf, but all this money would be hard to give up.

Enjoy! See what country you are!

My Pipes Will Be Fixed!

Hoooray! I finally caught up with my neighbor tonight ... and he is all cool and laid back and says "Uh, yeah, I can take care of those pipes for you." It was the sweetest thing I'd heard all week. Even better, he can do it when I want, and he said he can do it for like HALF what the other guy said. Yeah baby! (Normally, if a contractor said that, I'd be nervous. But this is my neighbor, and I know his family pretty well)

Hot, Hot, Hot

Things here are HOT. We are having a bit of a heat wave. Okay, nothing like the Mojave Desert, but pretty hot for here. So, I am neglecting the house and all those things I'm not getting done anyway -- and just trying to stay cool. I think we will be hitting the pool and any air conditioned store I can justify. No cooking, no cleaning, no obsessing. Okay, you know I'm obsessing a little, but I'm trying not to.

No news on the plumber front. I'm waiting to talk with my neighbor the contractor. I'm feeling rather lackadaisical on that issue. Oh, but DH got me some eye stain from work and Lu Lu did not have an ulcer and actually her eye looks all better today! Yea, something is going right!

I'm a little nervous about this week. Its CD16, so I should be ovulating (or did). I refuse to do the OPK thing. I just can't hold it for 4 hours, which I understand is the proper way to do it. We ditched them pretty early on when I was doing IUI, and used trigger shots instead. So instead I bought some wine and just plan to do the nasty as much as possible. I've only done the DHEA for 2 weeks, so really it is unlikely to do anything yet, but I'm hoping. Actually I've not even taken it three times a day all the time either. I've been having some really mild dizziness occasionally and some headaches. But the headaches are more tension type. I backed off the DHEA a couple of days since I read it can cause elevated blood pressure (thus the dizziness??). I order some micronized DHEA online to see if that makes any difference. I don't really have any other symptoms though, so maybe these symptoms are from something else. No acne, no increase in my irritability, no real change in libido (bummer huh?). I guess I'll just wait and see. Gotta love that waiting ...