Monday, January 14, 2008

Pre-Scan Jitters

Facing tomorrow with trepidation. Scan will be in the afternoon. I will be 7w6d.

Its possible that it could be a beautiful moment. My husband will be coming with me. We could see these babies with heartbeats and limb buds and smile at one another. Perhaps I'll shed tears of joy.

Or it could be very different. I hate feeling like the classic IFer full of doom and gloom. In reality, I'm still having nausea, some mild fatigue, and my ocular migraines have returned -- so there really isn't any indication that things have gone wrong. But now I know so many of your stories, and it is hard not to have some fear before this appointment.

We do still excitedly talk of car seats, cribs and such. But I still can't help by adding that typical if this works out or assuming things are fine. Its tiring. I keep telling myself that if we can get to 12 weeks that I will let go of the concerns. I WILL enjoy this experience. Although even if I can achieve that lofty goal, I think our lives will get so crazy with selling the house and moving to LA that I might not have much chance.


Lori said...

It seems so odd to be in that place of limbo.

I await good news!

JJ said...

Thinking so many good thoughts for you!

MsPrufrock said...

This will hardly alleviate your fears, but it is very possible you will be trepidatious throughout your pregnancy. That by no means implies that you cannot enjoy pregnancy and any resulting babies.

For the duration of my pregnancy I checked the toilet paper every time I went to the bathroom, waiting for blood. I tried to leave that anxiety for times like that, and revel in all of the good things that were happening. I have no doubt you'll be able to do the same.

Best of luck tomorrow.

serenity said...

Fingers crossed for you tomorrow.

And honestly? I'm STILL saying "it's looking like, if this all works out, we're going to be parents."

It's hard to embrace the hope, when the fear has been your life for a long time.

Hugs hon.

Delenn said...

Wishing you major luck tomorrow!

Magpie said...

Good luck tomorrow - I'll be thinking of you.

Katie said...

Hello, fellow IF Gloom and Doomer here. How crazy that we BOTH have our scans tomorrow.

I'm 7w2d, so we are just 4 days apart. How exciting that we could possibly be sharing a due date together, although with twins, you'll go first.

Isn't it funny how we have such confidence for others and so littler for ourselves.

Prayers for both of us!

Leah said...

Good luck with tomorrow's appointment. I'll be anxiously awaiting your update!

Tam said...

I am sure that everything will be just fine. Thinking of you today

Love and hugs xxx

Rebecca said...

Good luck! Good luck! Good luck! Keep us posted and cry is you want to! It's a great experience...I remember saying, "that's so cool." I sounded like a 10-year old, but it IS cool!

singletracey said...

i know what you mean.. I keep saying ok.. if everything is ok tomorrow I will let go of some of this worry.. then at 12 weeks.. more.. I think at some point.. we will all worry until the moment we have a baby in our arms...

Good Luck today!!