Friday, January 4, 2008

Gone

Now its gone again. Its like I'm having little bursts of bleeding at the end of the day, then its is over by morning. The cramping was the scary part and lasted about 2-3 hours. This morning I feel much more nauseous, so I'm figuring the levels are going up.

I thought I'd call the RE today, but I just don't want to. Thanks chicklet, for wanting to get me more tests. And in one way that might make me feel better, but the reality is that until I hit 12 weeks with a heartbeat, I don't think I'll settle down much. I'm just going to try to hold out to u/s on Monday.

Then DH and I fought last night cause he said something typically inappropriate, so of course I returned the favor and we didn't do much to make each other feel better.

Thanks for feeling bad for me. Thanks for not saying too much. Thanks for being there.

16 comments:

Rachel said...

The torture of waiting is just horrible. I'm hoping for you.

DD said...

Isn't it funny how we set short term goals for ourselves (doubling beta; 6wk heartbeat; 12wk heartbeat, etc.), but as each one passes we set the bar higher? I guess there's nothing wrong with wanting more. Isn't that what we are all doing here?

Magpie said...

a calm and peaceful and spot-free weekend to you, dear.

fizzledink said...

Oh, Amy. I'm sorry for the torture of coming-and-going, it's-over-no-wait-it-started-again. It sucks.

Thinking of you this weekend.

SaraS-P said...

I hope it stops.

Wanting the best for you, Amy...

Tash said...

Aw hell, I hate that, I really hate that over a weekend (can you tell I've been there?). I know there's nothing one can do regardless, but the waiting just kills. Hoping it stops, and the post title is in reference to the spotting leaving. Feel free to dump angst here and keep sharp objects away from spouses.

Lori said...

Those not-talking times are so rough, especially on top of other stuff.

Hugs.

Ms. Planner said...

Oh gosh, a fight coupled with all the anxiety. Hugs to you my dear. I know it might be hard with The Snake but my RE suggested resting with feet up and drinking lots of water if I had an spotting in the first tri. He said fully 50% of healthy pregnancies experience spotting. Not that it alleviates any of your anxiety, but...well...hang in there, okay?

Delenn said...

Wishing the best news on Monday. I hope this weekend is less stressful.

chicklet said...

I get not wanting tests cuz you have so much further to go so how much difference will it make, but man, it's hard that you have to go through this at least as smoothly as it could be. Hang in there. We're rooting for you.

My Reality said...

I hope it stays gone.

Von said...

I had occasional spotting early on. It settled down but it certainly freaks you out.
I don't think the anxiousness eased for me until I got to 12 weeks.

Aurelia said...

For now, just sit tight and take some more progesterone, and hope. Not much else to do right?

Okay, if you do get the tests, I'm curious about what your progesterone and E2 levels are, simply because regardless of what is happening down below, high levels prevent breakthrough bleeding. It's the whole principle behind the pill.

Everything is crossed for you over here.

Rebecca said...

I really hope it stays away!

Sticky Bun said...

I'm sorry for this constant back and forth. And for the fight on top of the rest of the stress. (Although, I think we've all been there even though we know it doesn't make things better...)

I really hope it's all nothing and will be keeping my fingers crossed for your next appt on Monday.

Geohde said...

Waiting is hard. Waiting with scary symptoms is terrifying.

Hoping for you,

xx

J